God removes to refocus
I just want to say firstly that Prayer and manifestation is real. It works. So remember to think positive and manifest the love you want, the career you want and the future you want. :) Oh and keep God at the center of it all!
Based on true events. Names are changed to protect the identity of others.
We serve a jealous God. When I was little I would always be in church. At church I was a dancer, a singer, a poet, a model, but ultimately, a child of the King. The church was my second home. I hardly missed a Sunday and in any way I was needed I was there, always ready and willing to assist. During my teenage years I stopped going to church and began picking up on other things which engaged my time including relationships, friendships, school etc. I got into a relationship with my daughter’s father Christian and I remember I would always tell him I wanted to go back to church. Christian was never really a fan of church because he believed the majority of churchgoers were hypocrites and the biggest sinners and so I never really forced him or myself to go because I didn’t want to scare Christian away. As ridiculous as it sounds, this was my reality and I would do anything to keep my lover by my side.
When I was 20 weeks pregnant with my daughter I remember seeing the signs and laying in bed one day and having the realest conversation with God. I remember it like it was yesterday I said, God, if Christian is the man for me, show me, if not, may thine will be done. It was the scariest prayer I had ever prayed but I prayed it anyway although I was terrified of the result. In the days to follow my relationship with Christian began to go downhill. I remember he would text other females while on his trip expressing his yearning for their presence although he hadn’t seen me in weeks. Christian would go to hotels with female friends without my knowledge but somehow I would always find out. God? was that you? working on my behalf? This broke me to my core but I was also so amused because I could not believe that God was working so diligently and right before my eyes. As time went on my relationship with Christian continued to deteriorate more than I could ever imagine. I had a hard time accepting it due to the fact that I was pregnant and this was supposed to be a new beginning, not the ending of it all. The day Christian returned from his trip he told me he no longer wished to be in a relationship me. I had just delivered our daughter and so the first question I asked myself was why? why was this happening? why did my life turn out this way? but then I remembered the prayer. Had I actually, prayed Christian out of my life?
God removes to refocus.
One day while I was packing my belongings to leave Christian’s home Anestacia called me, such a coincidence I would meet her at such a dormant time in my life, she was calling from the Adventist church to deliver a bible lesson to me. That day I told myself Christian had to go because my God wants me back baby.
Although it hurt to lose what I thought was the best relationship I had, I re-gained what was actually the best relationship I will ever have. Now I am spending much more time in the presence of God and doing the things he would want me to do, I am back to embracing his presence and I have embarked on a fresh journey to becoming the God-fearing woman he wants me to be.
Christian was not a God-fearing man, although my relationship with him was good and we made the most beautiful daughter I could ever ask for, God was not in the middle. Christian was in the middle, I was so wrapped up in Christian that I forgot all about my creator. The one who made it all possible. My God said I am not at the center of this so first I will send Christian on a trip, and if by the time he comes back I am still not in the center of this I will take him completely away, and he did, beneath all of the hurt I am thankful, may thine will continue to be done as I truly cannot wait to see what else he has in store for my life.
Thank you for reading, see you again soon!
PS: Keep God in the middle or he will surely remove to refocus.
